I am a spiritual pilgrim, a spiritual traveller, travelling through time.
The journey is long – it seems to go on and on to beyond.
Where am I going to?
A gentle response, from deep within the soul, utters – It is a pilgrimage from myself back to me.
It is an incognito journey I take to find myself. A journey I take alone, that no-one else can see or understand.
It happens in this moment, and in every moment that passes by. The journey is rooted within myself – within the active experience of my thoughts, feelings and emotions.
The happiness and joy, the stress and anger, the friend and the enemy, the bonus and the challenge – these, and more, are all scenes and side scenes that I pass through each day. They are on the journey but are not the destination.
I must journey on and just let them pass…and they will. I don’t need to pack them up and carry them on my journey – that would just be excess baggage that will make the journey more difficult.
Let me not stop. Let me let go and continue my pilgrimage back to me.
When I look at myself and keep focusing on the weaknesses that exist within my own personality then it will lead me into depression.
Weaknesses do not belong to me but I have acquired them through life experiences and so it appears as if they belong to me – but they don’t!
Do I believe that?
What I need to do is see the truth within myself, about myself, and believe that.
Let me understand that I am a soul. I need to have conviction in what it means to be a soul. Believe in the soul’s true nature and innate qualities.
Without belief there is no power of authority in that truth.
Like a picture of the sun – looking at it again and again will not give me light or heat. I need to see the real sun and then I will experience it.
Experience makes us worthy and powerful.
Experience gives us spiritual authority.
AUM is the eternal sound of creation…… and I exist ……. within this eternity
A – marks the beginning, the start of the journey through time
U – signifies expansion and the sustenance of the creation
M – marks closure – going back to the essence, the point, the seed
And then from the seed creation takes shape once again….
This is the eternal sound and the eternal cycle of creation.
This is the sound of ‘I’, the eternal being…
AUM means ….. I exist
AUM …. I am
When thoughts are expressed they lead to words and action. This expression of thoughts creates an experience for the self and leaves a memory of that experience within the subconscious.
When I repeat the same words and actions again and again, they become a habit. And when habits are repeated, over time, they become my personality – it reflects the way I am.
This personality I am now, has been created, over time, through expression and experience. Layers of experiences have superseded each other with dominating personality traits overpowering more subtle and gentle ones.
I take a deep breath and reflect on this ‘created’ personality of mine and the thought arises from deep within the soul – what was my original personality? Will I ever return to that original pure personality that I was?
And my conscience responds in a whisper – this is the destiny of the soul.
As I journey into the depths of silence, I close behind me the doors to all other sound. Silence is not only a space without words but it is in fact a state beyond sound. My speaking, hearing, seeing and thinking all become silent.
I allow my inner ear to open up and I listen to the sound of silence that is within me. I journey onwards deeper and deeper in to the recesses of my inner world.
I discover that silence has its own vibration and I find I am naturally and effortlessly aligning myself to vibrate at the same frequency.
The sound and vibrations of silence are amplified and in that moment of total focus I become absorbed within silence itself
I am absorbed and I am free from all attractions, influences, desires and even free from fear. It is in this state of being that I become open and available to receive from God – His love, light, power and peace.
Become absorbed in silence and be open to absorb Gods power.
In a fast moving world that operates on the basis of actions and reactions, is it possible for me to step back and observe?
My automatic reaction to life’s dramas seem to be controlled by a force that I am not directly managing. And then these reactions become the basis of my tomorrow.
In the face of situations let me see if I can apply a brake. To stop and not engage at any level – whether it be my thoughts, words, actions or even feelings.
If I am able to stop then I can become the observer of the scene – Who is doing what and why?
If I can step back even further then I become the observer of the self and my behaviour within the scene. What am I thinking and feeling about the scene and what are the needs and desires which are fuelling that?
Developing the ability to ‘Stop’ will allow me to begin to understand the things that control me from a very deep space within the soul. I begin to reveal myself to myself and in doing so I am able to become free.
I take a moment and become still.
I allow each part of my body to slowly relax and as I do that the body responds and becomes very still.
I gently listen to my breath as I inhale and exhale – my breathing becomes slow and deep…
Moving my focus inward, I watch the pattern of my thoughts which have slowed down.
I become aware of there being a distinct stillness within.
From within this stillness I am drawn to a very gentle silence that is held within the inner ear.
I listen to this silence and as I do so I become absorbed in this eternal sound of silence.
I stand still in time and within this eternal sound of silence I just ‘am’ …..